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kayy.im feeling kinda down.practically no idea why): i think i miss hockey. sigh. didnt go for training today. i was caught with blood in my nose): and you know how terrible mine can get. sigh. basically by using limegreen fonts, it cheers me up. but its not quite working down here.

lets just blabb about my past.
erm...perhaps in p1.then i'll go up and up and UP.
so...nothing happened in p1, that i can remember, except for just representing my class in the 30m sprint race, on national day. haha. and then i won gold. and this teacher who announces the winner's names, pronounced my name as "nor-sia-fi-car". like...what the shit la. and all i did was to laugh to myself and just get the trophy. haha(:
nothing happened in p2. basically, i got into the top class, with only fathul as my malay classmate. haha.that clever ass. was so excited to see other malay students in the same class. and i got disappointed after i saw only him. oh wells.
in p3, nothing happened also. just got into the 2nd best class, and hasif and danial joined in, leaving fathul as the only malay student in 3F. yeahh.
then in p4, hidayah joined the same class as me. and we both actually hated one another before getting into the same class. she thinks that i was too tomboy-ish. and i cant remember why i didnt quite like her.haha. we were the closest of friends in p4, and really, till now:D
got into the same class as hidayah in p5 as well, together with fathul and hasif. yeahh. and people just kept on spreading nonsensical rumours about the 4 of us. hehh. YOU KNOW. but well, we didnt prove them right. yeahh(: coz we simply ignored:D had mr chai as our teacher. and hell yeah. he's the nicest and the BEST teacher i ever met(: there were times when he was in bad moods. but of course we did understand him. so all we had to do was to keep what's in class IN class, and not bring them out of class, and tell everyone else. yeahh. still remember(: and i used to LOVE the class breaks. haha. so cool.
never experienced such breaks like that anymore in primary 6. hidayah wasnt in the same class as me already.coz she was so freaking clever la. got into the best class. haha. together with fathul and danial, which leaves only me and hasif in 6b. nothing interesting, just that the malay guys started spreading stupid rumours about me and whoever. and that whoever just kept changing. hidayah's always puzzled on how i could cope with all the stupid rumours about me, when she herself cant cope with only one. haha.she's so cute la.haha(: basically i ignored them, and they got bored. so the rumours STOPPED :D haha.
sec 1 life is so great(: all the people from my class are so hip and awesome(: was voted as the history rep, thanks to jane dear-tsk. haha. anyhow select my name la. when she only knew me for like... less than a week. haha. and i got so stressed up whenever im given a new responsibility to do a new thing for ms goon. haha. yeahh.
then i had this angel called yuki who makes my life in crescent so much more interesting. hehh(: so we wrote letters. and she started giving me things. man, she's so nice(: and so is yvette. and yvette was the FIRST person i said "hi" to when i stepped into the hall, since i was the FIRST person from s2 in the hall. haha. then as mrs lee talked, turned around and saw aisah. she looked so freaking familiar, that i started smiling and talking to her. haha. so funny. and so i found out that she lives in my area. haha. so freaking cool(:
okay. so then from then, started knowing more people.
yeahh. so cool((:
went for sports trials. man, damn it cool((: and i wasnt even FORCED or PUSHED to join track. haha. samat was so nice. i bet ms loh told him about me la. yeah i think she did. and i think she knew that i didnt wanna join track, and so perhaps he knew about it, so he didnt bother to force me.haha(: so nice.
then i became the chairperson for the 2nd sem. so freaking stressful. really. i couldnt depend on myself, and so i always needed trina next to me.she really helped alot(: well, ya.most of the time(: and i treasured every help(:


got into many problems this year.ESPECIALLY about friendships. sigh. i just settled one about a few days ago. haha. yeahh(: so im kinda happy things are fine now. had a few quarells with my closest friend i ever had. and now, i dont even know whether the friendship we have now is what he calls friendship.sigh. sometimes he seems to treat me like a stranger. never mind. then had ANOTHER misunderstanding with ANOTHER bestfriend of mine. yeahh. i liked him. so suddenly, when i knew that he liked someone else.haha. well, that's practically how i felt. and now, we're friends. but not as close as we were actually. i kinda think that erm... we dont seem to be as close as we were. used to be so opened with him online.and now, we dont even talk when we see one another online. sigh. i just shouldnt have let him know. i caused so much trouble this year. to everyone, as in...EVERYONE. sigh.


but i really love the way i am now(: im all so happy and stuffs. sometimes i dont know why those nicks on my msn are like... so sad. i just think that i think SO negatively ):
things will change(: coz i'll be THE syafiqah i was in p4, who never liked anyone, who used to be so focused in everything she did. who used to not slack so bloody much. yeahh.
and im gonna give off my best shot in every hockey training i go for(:
coz hockey's what i enjoy in life, besides going for my organ classes(:



i really wanna stay cheerful forever.